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Monday, July 20, 2009

Holding on to what

Some times it feels like you have a hold on things. Feel like your grip can't get any tighter. Then you open your hand and notice you been holding nothing. The whole time you thinking you got this all is good. In real time you where to blind to see it slipping and didn't see the fall. Love is like holding on to a rope with a piano at the other end. You hold on so tight that your hands start to bleed. You do this because of the great reward at the end. At the end you get sweet music that's only if you hold and pull it towards you and cherish it. If that piano slips out of your hands you can get it back but its a diffrent tune. What I'm trying to say is love will make you sing late at night. Love will make you cry the whole day. At the end of it all only few ppl are willing to fight for it and even fewer are willing to die for it.

I Found love in the pretty brown eyes of lady. She is and will always be my baby. We hit bad times and some times that's all it takes is time to heal/fix what's hurt/broken. I never knew love could be so bitter but also sweet. I yern for her touch and she yerns for mine. I never looked in to any one eyes. For some reason I catch my self stairing and difting in to her eyes. She has the eyes to die for. The lips to cry for. The smile to make you know the every thing is alright. Waking up to her kisses and smile makes me feel like I found my peace of mind. I never seen a woman glide like her. Its like her feet don't touch the ground as she slides arcoss the floor. I feel like a puppy following her every steps begging for her touch, her lips, and her smile.


P.s. pray for me ... I can't tell yalll to smile if I cant

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Time

All my life I felt like I have been fighting. To the point I don't know what I'm fighting for. I'm losing what really matters to me. I would give it all just to get it back. Deep down in side I'm hurting. More then words could explain. She told me she needs time and that line means I need times to tell you bye. I been rejected all my life but this one is goin to hurt more then ever. How can some thing so brand new turn in to some thing used and old. I prayed on knees to the lord that she would see me for my heart. I feel like what I prayed for didn't even reach the roof lord I'm call out to you now don't take my baby let the score be 1 to 18billion.

Thursday, July 9, 2009

DAY34

DAY34


Have you ever hugged some one and got chills. Not chills of lust but of fear. Well I have and it was weird. That hug didn't feel right or sit right with me. It was like a empty hug filled with evil and hate.

P.S. lady I am going to take your idea and run with it. For you out in blog world I will be uploading my photos I take with my dslr. I have been slippin on my dreams of taking photos.


You can dream all day but wake up and make them real.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

DMV AIN'T FOR ME

I feel like I'm at a all time low. I feel like throwing in the towel giving up. I need to move start over where no one knows my name. I go places and people know always checking my foot work. If I ain't got new jays on then some thing is wrong with me. Some times I rather throw on my old tims and rock out. They looking like nigga you fell off. I got shoes for days I wear them for my self not any one else.I don't got any thing to prove. I'm not getting any where here. I need to start new where I can meet new people. Down south or new york is looking nice. 22 yrs old never left the dmv. Its all I know but I'm ready to bust loose. Move on leave turn to a new page. Just when I think I know who deejay is it keeps getting pulled away. I'm so done with the dmv so done with my job so done with where I stay. I'm going write the most realest thing I have wrote on this blog if I don't move then I'm going to kill my self....

Keep dreaming but dreams need to grow and watering and light so let it out and reach for it.

DAY33

DAY33


New blog up date my heart real heavy like 1 cadillac and 4 cheavys

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

DAY32

DAY32

Lol yep I'm messing around. All is well family is back. BIG SHOUTS OUT TO MY POPS HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE YA

Sunday, July 5, 2009

DAY31

DAY31

THEY SAY LET ME SEE YOUR GRILL THEN I GIVE THEM CHILLS

Saturday, July 4, 2009

DAY30

DAY30


JUST ONE OF THEM DAYS TRYIN TO KEEP MY HEAD ABOVE WATER... SINK OR SWIM?

Friday, July 3, 2009

DAY29

DAY29

WHY THE HELL AM I DEPRESSED. I want to think kickin it with people you would be cool but trust me it ain't that way. I feel like crap right now hmmm. Maybe I need to find some one ok deejay pull it together.

One person one life ONE DEEP

Thursday, July 2, 2009

DAY28

DAY28

AT WORK!!! But on the real I think my left leg is broken or a tore some thing in it. The heel of of my foot is causing great pain. This pain is so bad I don't wanna leave my room. I think I need to go to the doctors. Yes deejay said doctors. Even thought I hate going I think its better to find out the problem. Then to let it get wrose

One person one life ONE DEEP

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

DAY28

DAY28


VACATION HERE I COME OH WAIT NO I WILL BE AT HOME WHILE FAMILY GOES HOME I HATE YOU BOSS LADY