this post wont have the best of grammar cause its not meant to be
When i thought i couldn't sink any lower i did. Depression has hit a all time high for me. Today i cried in front of my girlfriend. not like a few tears but i cried like a bitch. I'm running on empty nothing left in the tank. I have no more options left. I can't even call my dad like i want to just to say hi. the reason is because i have no good news and i don't wanna bring any problems on him. for 26 years he has been there for me and i just want make him proud and say "that's my son" instead i bring nothing but drama. i bring nothing but drama to the ones who love me. like my girlfriend i don't know how much longer can carry the load of working by her self. I cook and clean but that can only go so far. I had interviews for jobs they seem to go so well but yet im still jobless. i think they fear me cause of how i look they will tell me on thing but do another. i rather you just tell me up front and say i don't have the job the instead of keeping on the line thinking i have a chance when i don't. yall pray for me
