I don't care if this blog post is missed spelled or run on. I jus wanna get my point out... the hardest thing thing in life is my life. I'm dyin in side I know longer have the passion to see the next day. its more like if I do or I dont. I'm eating my self to death I can't stop. I'm out for the day
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Saturday, November 7, 2009
I'm back!!!
Did you miss me? Don't answer that question, I have been away for awhile and it's been to long. I think it's time for my grand return so, roll out the red carpet and get ready to wittness greatness...
Saturday, August 29, 2009
I WISH IT WOULD
I WISH IT WOLD RAIN
SO NO ONE CAN CAN SEE MY TEAR DROP STAINS
LET THE RAIN WASH AWAY THE PAIN
SO LET THE SUN SHINE GO AWAY
SO UNTIL THEN I HAVE TO PUT ON A SMILE
WHEN BLUE SKIES
AND THE GRAY COMES AND THE SUN SHINE DIES
SO LET IT POUR ON ME
HIDE THESE TEAR DROPS SO NO ONE CAN SEE
NO ONE WILL KNOW THAT I BEEN CRYING
LET TEAR DROPS FLOW MIX RAIN SO NO ONE WILL MY HEART IS DYING
SO JUST LET IT RAIN LET IT RAIN RAIN RAIN RAIN
WRITE
write until you fix your problems until your soul is free write until you see your dreams come true write until the blood sweat and tears of years become memories write until your soul bleeds on to the paper write until you heart connects with your mind write until you die then and only then will they write about you
COME WITH ME
I WOULD LIKE TO TIE THIS IN TO MY LAST BLOG UPDATE SO THIS ONE IS FOR YOU!!!
YOU CAN SAVE....
I COULD WRITE YOUR NAME A MILLION TIMES IN THE SKY
I COULD PRETEND THE GIRL ON THE OTHER LINE IS YOU
COME WITH ME AND SEE WHERE MY TRUE HEART LIES
IM HERE TO MAKE LIES AND LIFE FALSE AND TRUE
I COULD WISH I WAS YOURS AND YOU WHERE MINE
IN REAL LIFE WE JUST WASTING TIME
SO LET ME SLEEP AND LET ME DREAM
ONLY THEN GRASS SEEMS GREEN
I CAN HOLD YOUR SMILE IN MY HAND
WE CAN WATCH THE WATER HIT THE SAND
THEN I AWAKE AND IM DROWNING ON DRY LAND
THEN WHERE BACK TO THE SAME PLACE
SAME RACE WITH NO CHASE
WE CAN PLAY THE SAME GAME
POINTING FINGERS SAYING WHO IS THE BLAME
YOU CAN SAVE YOUR SMILE AND SAVE YOUR HEART YOU CAN SAVE THE LIES
YOU CAN SAVE THE LAST MEMORY OF SAYING THE LAST good bye....
JUST A SHORT ONE
THEY SAY YOU WRITE YOUR BEST WHEN U GOING THRU PAIN HURT AND DEPRESSION... WELL IM WELL ON MY WAY TO BECOMING A GREAT WRITER AND I OWE IT ALL TO _________(YOUR NAME HERE)... IM GOING TO LET MY EMOTIONS BLEED THRU THE PEN UNTO THE PAPER AND IN TO YOUR SOUL AND OUT OF YOUR HEART TAKE A BOW THIS IS FOR YOU... THIS IS CURTIN CALL ONE SHOW(LIFE/LOVE) ONLY
LEAVE ME ALONE
Leave me alone like you did last time. don't you have when people have dissed you in the past want to get down with you. well this topic is about about this girl. there was this girl in high school i was trying to get this and she would not give me no play. i didn't stress it i just bounced and she came to me. when she came she came with nothing but drama and stress and played to many games. she dissed me again so i left it alone. now that i found some one i love and want to be with she comes back. she saw my status on face-book it said i was in a relationship. i get a phone her trying to sound all sweet and trying push up on me. then i ask her what the hell do she want. she comes out and say i want you. i was like why u want me now u didn't want me before. she goes off and say i always wanted you. i pulled her card and said no u didn't and she was like well i didn't know how good of a man u are. then i said well my girl friend knows all about it you can ask her. that mad her mad. she went off and well you girl cant do this cant do that(some real dirty stuff). i just laughed and then she went and said she was going to take 20 pills (i laughed think she was going to take sponge bob vitamins ). i hung up because i could not stop laughing then she called back saying she not going to because she has to live for her son. people i think i have a stalker or some crazy basic BITCH who thinks its ok to talk side ways.
well live life its your last day
Thursday, August 27, 2009
I NEED FRIENDS
I need friends i have no one where to vent to. i have my girl but some times I'm pissed at her. i cant vent to her because some times she be snapping on me about the problems that i have. before i had friends i could go to them and tell them my problems and they would listen. now a days these people got there own problems and they not trying to hear mine. when they have problems they come to me. when i need a vent session they listen for like the 1st 10mins then they try to relate and change the convo about them and theirs. thats one of the reason i rather be one deep. i feel like why have friends when all they going to do is let me down. now i feel like i need friends ***laughing and eating crow***. i watched a movie called "I love you man" its about a guy who is getting married and doesn't have any male friends to be his best man. so he goes what they call a "man date". I'm all for finding a new friend or more friends but i don't see me doing the whole "man date" thing. for the most part I'm a guy who could to a female before i could talk to another dude. most people feel like a guy cant be friends with a female and just on a friend relationship. i know at the end of the day i will find some one i can call a friend because calling some a friend is like telling some one you love them. it should not be thrown around very easy because friends are very far and few. many and a lot of people said i should open up more and may be i should be its not easy when 22yrs have kept to your self and its easier to get hurt. may be I'm part of this new age where venting is done over blogs, twitter, and face-book. then again i like meeting new people some people can be like breath of fresh air and can renew your soul. all in all change is going to come one way or another....
if you don't love your self how can you love some one else. love starts at home with your self
Monday, July 20, 2009
Holding on to what
Some times it feels like you have a hold on things. Feel like your grip can't get any tighter. Then you open your hand and notice you been holding nothing. The whole time you thinking you got this all is good. In real time you where to blind to see it slipping and didn't see the fall. Love is like holding on to a rope with a piano at the other end. You hold on so tight that your hands start to bleed. You do this because of the great reward at the end. At the end you get sweet music that's only if you hold and pull it towards you and cherish it. If that piano slips out of your hands you can get it back but its a diffrent tune. What I'm trying to say is love will make you sing late at night. Love will make you cry the whole day. At the end of it all only few ppl are willing to fight for it and even fewer are willing to die for it.
I Found love in the pretty brown eyes of lady. She is and will always be my baby. We hit bad times and some times that's all it takes is time to heal/fix what's hurt/broken. I never knew love could be so bitter but also sweet. I yern for her touch and she yerns for mine. I never looked in to any one eyes. For some reason I catch my self stairing and difting in to her eyes. She has the eyes to die for. The lips to cry for. The smile to make you know the every thing is alright. Waking up to her kisses and smile makes me feel like I found my peace of mind. I never seen a woman glide like her. Its like her feet don't touch the ground as she slides arcoss the floor. I feel like a puppy following her every steps begging for her touch, her lips, and her smile.
I Found love in the pretty brown eyes of lady. She is and will always be my baby. We hit bad times and some times that's all it takes is time to heal/fix what's hurt/broken. I never knew love could be so bitter but also sweet. I yern for her touch and she yerns for mine. I never looked in to any one eyes. For some reason I catch my self stairing and difting in to her eyes. She has the eyes to die for. The lips to cry for. The smile to make you know the every thing is alright. Waking up to her kisses and smile makes me feel like I found my peace of mind. I never seen a woman glide like her. Its like her feet don't touch the ground as she slides arcoss the floor. I feel like a puppy following her every steps begging for her touch, her lips, and her smile.
P.s. pray for me ... I can't tell yalll to smile if I cant
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Time
All my life I felt like I have been fighting. To the point I don't know what I'm fighting for. I'm losing what really matters to me. I would give it all just to get it back. Deep down in side I'm hurting. More then words could explain. She told me she needs time and that line means I need times to tell you bye. I been rejected all my life but this one is goin to hurt more then ever. How can some thing so brand new turn in to some thing used and old. I prayed on knees to the lord that she would see me for my heart. I feel like what I prayed for didn't even reach the roof lord I'm call out to you now don't take my baby let the score be 1 to 18billion.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
DAY34
Have you ever hugged some one and got chills. Not chills of lust but of fear. Well I have and it was weird. That hug didn't feel right or sit right with me. It was like a empty hug filled with evil and hate.
P.S. lady I am going to take your idea and run with it. For you out in blog world I will be uploading my photos I take with my dslr. I have been slippin on my dreams of taking photos.
You can dream all day but wake up and make them real.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
DMV AIN'T FOR ME
I feel like I'm at a all time low. I feel like throwing in the towel giving up. I need to move start over where no one knows my name. I go places and people know always checking my foot work. If I ain't got new jays on then some thing is wrong with me. Some times I rather throw on my old tims and rock out. They looking like nigga you fell off. I got shoes for days I wear them for my self not any one else.I don't got any thing to prove. I'm not getting any where here. I need to start new where I can meet new people. Down south or new york is looking nice. 22 yrs old never left the dmv. Its all I know but I'm ready to bust loose. Move on leave turn to a new page. Just when I think I know who deejay is it keeps getting pulled away. I'm so done with the dmv so done with my job so done with where I stay. I'm going write the most realest thing I have wrote on this blog if I don't move then I'm going to kill my self....
Keep dreaming but dreams need to grow and watering and light so let it out and reach for it.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
DAY32
Lol yep I'm messing around. All is well family is back. BIG SHOUTS OUT TO MY POPS HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE YA
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Friday, July 3, 2009
DAY29
WHY THE HELL AM I DEPRESSED. I want to think kickin it with people you would be cool but trust me it ain't that way. I feel like crap right now hmmm. Maybe I need to find some one ok deejay pull it together.
One person one life ONE DEEP
Thursday, July 2, 2009
DAY28
AT WORK!!! But on the real I think my left leg is broken or a tore some thing in it. The heel of of my foot is causing great pain. This pain is so bad I don't wanna leave my room. I think I need to go to the doctors. Yes deejay said doctors. Even thought I hate going I think its better to find out the problem. Then to let it get wrose
One person one life ONE DEEP
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
DAY28
VACATION HERE I COME OH WAIT NO I WILL BE AT HOME WHILE FAMILY GOES HOME I HATE YOU BOSS LADY
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
DAY27
KEEP IT MOVING NEVER SLOW DOWN FOR ANY ONE. KEEP PUSHING AND LET GOD JUDGE YOU AT THE END... SHOUTS OUT TO KANGAROO OOWW LOL
We are not the same I am a Martian (23)
DAY26
Shouts out to DAY26 for winning at the BET awards. Any ways day26 picture is from Monday and day 27 will be for day I was tied up last nite.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
More then you'll ever know
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Friday, June 26, 2009
DAY24
I'M SOOOOOO SLEEPY. I'M at work and I hate holla. Love your family and friends but love your self
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
DAY22
TODAY IS DEEJAY'S DAY OFF... yep you seen the movie I'm talking about. About a young man who fakes sick. Good movie that's all I'm saying. Yep today I will grasp it and do it my way no rules no worries. I think atleast once every 2 months you should do it. Just relax ahh this time I will post a blog of todays doings. Peace and love
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
DAY21
I'm doing it for 365 so don't trip. I'm at work trying make some cash flow. I might post some thing late on. Oooh back to work boss lady fixin to throw a bitch fit
Let your self be your best friend peace and love
Monday, June 22, 2009
DAY20
I went and got my pops a digital picture frame he wanted. I would like touch on some thing dear to my heart its call support. Why won't the people that want support from you won't return it to me. I'm trying so hard for my people to come to my blog because it means they would take the of day to do some thing I like. Well blog world no point of cryin over spilt milk. If they come they come if they don't then it wasn't ment to be.
Watching the five heart beats for the 1st yeah I know shame on me. Is Leon still acting? Holla at the kid
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Day19
Mark my words deejay is going to flip on his boss very soon. She pushing me to no return. Today there was autistic person in my line and she need to return some thing. She was very sweet and kept sayin sorry I told her no need to be sorry. Well my boss is the only who can say a return can go or not. Well she said send them to me. Well the woman went to her and, my boss said why are you returning it? The way said it was as if the woman did some thing wrong. So I'm guess she got scared and said I don't know. That's when my boss got pissed off and started yelling at her. Blog world it took all my power not to punch her in the face. I feel like some people should not be given power. Do I think I would run cvs better? Hmmm I would prob run it in to the ground. I don't see my self head boss. On another note new blog coming after this fathers day blog
Saturday, June 20, 2009
DAY18
Today is my 1st day back to work in almost a week. I wanted to try some thing diffrent. this is the day b4 fathers day. I wanted to cop a digital picture frame for pops but they sold out on the one I had my eye on. Every one wish Lady GOOD LUCK she got a big job interview today. Ok I gotta get back to work. Every one be bless and happy early fathers day
Friday, June 19, 2009
Thursday, June 18, 2009
The road to no where?
The road to no where is a long road. I had plans today had a movie date. The 1st thing that I thought was going to take me out my slump. Well well that's far from the truth. It started to rain and rain and new hair do don't mix. So I get a text and call saying she was still on her way. Then 10mins later I get another call um DeeJay I can't make it. Blah I know there's some down falls but its like its all falling on me. Its been rainin for 21 years when will it stop. Well I'm off to find some thing to holla!!!
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
DAY15
I been going out in my back yard to relax who would have though. Have y'all notice the soda in the last couple of pictures. Last time it was brisk tea now its dr pepper. Yes I'm bored duh where have you been the last few blog updates
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Jordan 12 (XII) rising sun
Back in April, we reported that the Air Jordan 12 (XII) would be releasing three now colorways this holiday season, and we now have our first look at the first of three styles. This pair hosts a white leather upper with black accents on the out-sole, inner lining, and heel, while varsity red accents can be seen via the heel and tongue. Overall, this pair yields a clean and fresh new colorway of a classic model. This sneaker is nicknamed the “Rising Sun” Air Jordan 12 (XII), and will release in October 2009 for a retail price of $150. Be sure to check out the additional pictures after the jump.
Air Jordan XII (12) Retro (Limited Release)Release Date: 10/2009Style Number: 130690-163Colorway: White/Black-Varsity RedRetail Price: $150
Nike Air Hoop Structure - Black / Aqua
Nike Air Hoop Structure in a colorway/design inspired by the classic Air Jordan Aqua 8's...Holiday 2009 Release
DAMN THEY GOT THE SNEAKERS
MELO IS THAT YOU?????
More than 1,000 fans took to the streets outside the Staples Center in Los Angeles, California after the Lakers clinched the NBA Championship in Orlando, Florida against the Magic Sunday night. Though the game was not shown for fans in the arena itself, many fans squeezed into sports bars and restaurants in downtown Los Angeles to watch the deciding Game 5 of the NBA Finals. When fans took to the streets following the game, joyous celebrations quickly turned into violent riots.According to the Los Angeles Police Department, at least 25 people were arrested during the riots. People were seen jumping on police cars, setting of fireworks and flares, and cheering on passing vehicles in nearby streets. Arrests were made for disturbing the peace, looting, and arson. LAPD Chief William Bratton applauded his fellow officers for dealing with the increasingly dangerous situation. “It’s not easy to stand there when cowards in the middle of the crowd are throwing rocks and bottles at them,” he said.The victory parade for the Lakers’ 15th NBA Championship is scheduled for Wednesday.
DAY 14
I'm gone like the wind peace out
Dreams and heros
Then you got shay my eldest sister. She the one you know who will give 200% when she only has 50%. She has a drive about her like no other. some times I may act like she bothering me but its all love. We kinda play the love hate role but trust me there is no hate jus a lot of playful love.
Now you AJ she my 2nd eldest sister aka money bags(ssshhh don't tell). She is one of the most hardest working people I know. When she comes from work she at church and when she's done she working on projects for church. If that would be me then I would come home and go to sleep. Over sleep miss church. Then the project well let's jus say WHAT PROJECT. Well that's all my sisters and brother. WAIT STOP THE PRESS!!! That would be true if I had a normal family.
How can we not talk about HOTT. I call him repeat he will ask the same question over and over. After the 3rd time you turn off your ears. I learn never turn a deaf ear to HOTT. One day he taught/ showed me the sky is the limit. It was in a time when I felt like my dreams where to out there. I respect that in him. He gives back he has morals. He coaches 5th and 6th graders football. He has a passion for it like no other. What makes it even better these kids respect him and look up to him. To add more to this perfect picture he one of the best fathers I seen. The way he is around with lil HOTT is like watching a painter paint his masterpiece. He some one got to respect and love
Jay is well jay. Jay and I are in competion. In every thing we do its to see who can do it better/ faster or longer. Not to long ago we had a eating contest. Who can eat the most pizza.(DRUM ROLL) it was a tie 27 slices. To add more story to Jay he is easy going and the biggest flirt I seen. I look up to him but play the part as if I can't stand him. He is a GOD fearing man which all my brother and sisters are. Its just I never seen some one as young as him with drive like him. Jay mr grind time enough said.
I love my family I would never trade them for nothing in the world. We are like fingers apart but when together we are like powerful fist. A fist that can break through any wall. None is like us. Now I'm sure your woundering about the dream part. Well with them life is better then my dream world. Holla remember keep family 1st.
P.s. I do have younger brothers and sisters we roll deep
Keep dreaming and keep smiling and remember that family is love and love is family
Monday, June 15, 2009
Sunday, June 14, 2009
gotta love the game
this song is better then kobe song wanye did
lol lil homie ripped. did yall see kobe and lebron jammin' lol... good season good turn out
D Howard
D Howard still with the smile i respect dude so much good sports men ship i guess he was just happy to play.
sux sum den punk
L.A. LAKERS
09 CHAMPS
4 RINGS
"When you're together, you can withstand adversity" Kobe bryant
RT @THE_REAL_SHAQ: Congratualtions kobe, u deserve it. You played great And I know what you're sayin right now, "Shaq how my ass taste "
LOL SHAQ SAID IT HIM SELF
I WOULD NOT
"I would not be talking to you If you was some one else!!!" hmm what do that mean. i hear that from lady a few times. i dont know if thats a good thing. it could be a bad thing like im messing up and need to get right. it could be a good thing like i have staying power. At the end of the day i feel like i need to do better. its so easy doing wrong sooo easy. i guess nothing comes easy and if its worth working for then it has to be hard. have a good night keep hope alive and GOD bless.
"You got to believe in yourself. Hell, I believe I'm the best-looking guy in the world and I might be right."- Charles Barkley
Friday, June 12, 2009
STORM 2!!!
for all of you guys who want to buy the Storm well you guys can wait BB is back again with there 2ND touch screen phone called black berry storm 2
OR
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
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