I NEED FRIENDS

I need friends i have no one where to vent to. i have my girl but some times I'm pissed at her. i cant vent to her because some times she be snapping on me about the problems that i have. before i had friends i could go to them and tell them my problems and they would listen. now a days these people got there own problems and they not trying to hear mine. when they have problems they come to me. when i need a vent session they listen for like the 1st 10mins then they try to relate and change the convo about them and theirs. thats one of the reason i rather be one deep. i feel like why have friends when all they going to do is let me down. now i feel like i need friends ***laughing and eating crow***. i watched a movie called "I love you man" its about a guy who is getting married and doesn't have any male friends to be his best man. so he goes what they call a "man date". I'm all for finding a new friend or more friends but i don't see me doing the whole "man date" thing. for the most part I'm a guy who could to a female before i could talk to another dude. most people feel like a guy cant be friends with a female and just on a friend relationship. i know at the end of the day i will find some one i can call a friend because calling some a friend is like telling some one you love them. it should not be thrown around very easy because friends are very far and few. many and a lot of people said i should open up more and may be i should be its not easy when 22yrs have kept to your self and its easier to get hurt. may be I'm part of this new age where venting is done over blogs, twitter, and face-book. then again i like meeting new people some people can be like breath of fresh air and can renew your soul. all in all change is going to come one way or another....

if you don't love your self how can you love some one else. love starts at home with your self