1st off let me start of with HAPPY BLACK HISTORY MONTH!!!
ON TO THE NEXT...
After having a very moving talk to my eldest brother I knew it was time for a change. He knew where I was coming for with the health problems I was having with being over weight. He knew the extra struggle of having back pains and not able to tell any one. Today I was doing well didn't eat alot/pig out drank a lot of water and even planned to go work out with my step mom. I was amped to go walking/ work out. I had my ipod and good play list of music I was ready. so we get out to the church to work out I still felt amped. Then I realized I was with a bunch of older women (45-70). I was thinking since I'm obese x3 I could keep up. I was getting my walk on 1st lap done... 2nd lap done. Ok now my back is starting to hurt just a little. So I'm like what the heck let me go in the bath room and stretch losing up my back. Then ok its not feeling a little better I knock out 4 more laps on that last lap I find my step mom. I ask for the keys to get some water out the car. In my thoughts I was saying I'm just going to take a break and sit down. When I sat down that's when my body gave out my legs began to cramp up and that's when I called it quits. I think its going to be hard to show my face back here. I'm sure people are goin to talk about me. It bothers me knowing people are going to talk behind my back it would be easier if they would say it to my face. Now I never said I was giving up and I'm done. I jus realized its going to be much harder and might be the biggest task I ever had to tackle. I just pray to GOD that it will get easier with work.
I also have been working on my new sleeping pattern. I'm trying to go to bed earlier vs going to bed at 7am and waking up at 3pm. So what my eldest brother suggested was stay up until 6am but get up with the family at 9am. Through out the day no naps. So far I did take a nap but I'm sleepy right now so I hope I will get the full effect of fixing my sleep pattern.
Dream BIG do BIG be BIG
Stay encouraged lil brother. It will not be easy but as they say "the race is won NOT to the swift but to those who don't quit." It's a long road but you have to keep up the work and when you feel weak, PRAY for strength. When you fall, get back up. No shame in falling, just staying down. Thinking about you and love you!
ReplyDelete