I'm back!!!

Did you miss me? Don't answer that question, I have been away for awhile and it's been to long. I think it's time for my grand return so, roll out the red carpet and get ready to wittness greatness...

I WISH IT WOULD

I WISH IT WOLD RAIN 

SO NO ONE CAN CAN SEE MY TEAR DROP STAINS

LET THE RAIN WASH AWAY THE PAIN

SO LET THE SUN SHINE GO AWAY 

SO UNTIL THEN I HAVE TO PUT ON A SMILE 

WHEN BLUE SKIES

AND THE GRAY COMES AND THE SUN SHINE DIES

SO LET IT POUR ON ME

HIDE THESE TEAR DROPS SO NO ONE CAN SEE

NO ONE WILL KNOW THAT I BEEN CRYING 

LET TEAR DROPS FLOW MIX RAIN SO NO ONE WILL MY HEART IS DYING

SO JUST LET IT RAIN LET IT RAIN RAIN RAIN RAIN

WRITE

write until you fix your problems until your soul is free write until you see your dreams come true write until the blood sweat and tears of years become memories write until your soul bleeds on to the paper write until you heart connects with your mind write until you die then and only then will they write about you

COME WITH ME

I WOULD LIKE TO TIE THIS IN TO MY LAST BLOG UPDATE SO THIS ONE IS FOR YOU!!!

YOU CAN SAVE....

I COULD WRITE YOUR NAME A MILLION TIMES IN THE SKY

I COULD PRETEND THE GIRL ON THE OTHER LINE IS YOU

COME WITH ME AND SEE WHERE MY TRUE HEART LIES

IM HERE TO MAKE LIES AND LIFE FALSE AND TRUE

I COULD WISH I WAS YOURS AND YOU WHERE MINE

IN REAL LIFE WE JUST WASTING TIME

SO LET ME SLEEP AND LET ME DREAM

ONLY THEN GRASS SEEMS GREEN

I CAN HOLD YOUR SMILE IN MY HAND

WE  CAN WATCH THE WATER HIT THE SAND

THEN I AWAKE AND IM DROWNING ON DRY LAND 

THEN WHERE BACK TO THE SAME PLACE

 SAME RACE WITH NO CHASE

WE CAN PLAY THE SAME GAME

POINTING FINGERS SAYING WHO IS THE BLAME 

YOU CAN SAVE YOUR SMILE AND SAVE YOUR HEART YOU CAN SAVE THE LIES

YOU CAN SAVE THE LAST MEMORY OF SAYING THE LAST good bye....

JUST A SHORT ONE

THEY SAY YOU WRITE YOUR BEST WHEN U GOING THRU PAIN HURT AND DEPRESSION... WELL IM WELL ON MY WAY TO BECOMING A GREAT WRITER AND I OWE IT ALL TO _________(YOUR NAME HERE)... IM GOING TO LET MY EMOTIONS BLEED THRU THE PEN UNTO THE PAPER AND IN TO YOUR SOUL AND OUT OF YOUR HEART TAKE A BOW THIS IS FOR YOU... THIS IS CURTIN CALL ONE SHOW(LIFE/LOVE) ONLY

LEAVE ME ALONE

Leave me alone like you did last time. don't you have when people have dissed you in the past want to get down with you. well this topic is about about this girl. there was this girl in high school i was trying to get this and she would not give me no play. i didn't stress it i just bounced and she came to me. when she came she came with nothing but drama and stress and played to many games. she dissed me again so i left it alone. now that i found some one i love and want to be with she comes back. she saw my status on face-book it said i was in a relationship. i get a phone her trying to sound all sweet and trying push up on me. then i ask her what the hell do she want. she comes out and say i want you. i was like why u want me now u didn't want me before. she goes off and say i always wanted you. i pulled her card and said no u didn't and she was like well i didn't know how good of a man u are. then i said well my girl friend knows all about it you can ask her. that mad her mad. she went off and well you girl cant do this cant do that(some real dirty stuff). i just laughed and then she went and said she was going to take 20 pills (i laughed think she was going to take sponge bob vitamins ). i hung up because i could not stop laughing then she called back saying she not going to because she has to live for her son. people i think i have a stalker or some crazy basic BITCH who thinks its ok to talk side ways.

well live life its your last day

I NEED FRIENDS

I need friends i have no one where to vent to. i have my girl but some times I'm pissed at her. i cant vent to her because some times she be snapping on me about the problems that i have. before i had friends i could go to them and tell them my problems and they would listen. now a days these people got there own problems and they not trying to hear mine. when they have problems they come to me. when i need a vent session they listen for like the 1st 10mins then they try to relate and change the convo about them and theirs. thats one of the reason i rather be one deep. i feel like why have friends when all they going to do is let me down. now i feel like i need friends ***laughing and eating crow***. i watched a movie called "I love you man" its about a guy who is getting married and doesn't have any male friends to be his best man. so he goes what they call a "man date". I'm all for finding a new friend or more friends but i don't see me doing the whole "man date" thing. for the most part I'm a guy who could to a female before i could talk to another dude. most people feel like a guy cant be friends with a female and just on a friend relationship. i know at the end of the day i will find some one i can call a friend because calling some a friend is like telling some one you love them. it should not be thrown around very easy because friends are very far and few. many and a lot of people said i should open up more and may be i should be its not easy when 22yrs have kept to your self and its easier to get hurt. may be I'm part of this new age where venting is done over blogs, twitter, and face-book. then again i like meeting new people some people can be like breath of fresh air and can renew your soul. all in all change is going to come one way or another....

if you don't love your self how can you love some one else. love starts at home with your self 

Holding on to what

Some times it feels like you have a hold on things. Feel like your grip can't get any tighter. Then you open your hand and notice you been holding nothing. The whole time you thinking you got this all is good. In real time you where to blind to see it slipping and didn't see the fall. Love is like holding on to a rope with a piano at the other end. You hold on so tight that your hands start to bleed. You do this because of the great reward at the end. At the end you get sweet music that's only if you hold and pull it towards you and cherish it. If that piano slips out of your hands you can get it back but its a diffrent tune. What I'm trying to say is love will make you sing late at night. Love will make you cry the whole day. At the end of it all only few ppl are willing to fight for it and even fewer are willing to die for it.

I Found love in the pretty brown eyes of lady. She is and will always be my baby. We hit bad times and some times that's all it takes is time to heal/fix what's hurt/broken. I never knew love could be so bitter but also sweet. I yern for her touch and she yerns for mine. I never looked in to any one eyes. For some reason I catch my self stairing and difting in to her eyes. She has the eyes to die for. The lips to cry for. The smile to make you know the every thing is alright. Waking up to her kisses and smile makes me feel like I found my peace of mind. I never seen a woman glide like her. Its like her feet don't touch the ground as she slides arcoss the floor. I feel like a puppy following her every steps begging for her touch, her lips, and her smile.

P.s. pray for me ... I can't tell yalll to smile if I cant

Time

All my life I felt like I have been fighting. To the point I don't know what I'm fighting for. I'm losing what really matters to me. I would give it all just to get it back. Deep down in side I'm hurting. More then words could explain. She told me she needs time and that line means I need times to tell you bye. I been rejected all my life but this one is goin to hurt more then ever. How can some thing so brand new turn in to some thing used and old. I prayed on knees to the lord that she would see me for my heart. I feel like what I prayed for didn't even reach the roof lord I'm call out to you now don't take my baby let the score be 1 to 18billion.

DAY34

DAY34

Have you ever hugged some one and got chills. Not chills of lust but of fear. Well I have and it was weird. That hug didn't feel right or sit right with me. It was like a empty hug filled with evil and hate.

P.S. lady I am going to take your idea and run with it. For you out in blog world I will be uploading my photos I take with my dslr. I have been slippin on my dreams of taking photos.

You can dream all day but wake up and make them real.

DMV AIN'T FOR ME

I feel like I'm at a all time low. I feel like throwing in the towel giving up. I need to move start over where no one knows my name. I go places and people know always checking my foot work. If I ain't got new jays on then some thing is wrong with me. Some times I rather throw on my old tims and rock out. They looking like nigga you fell off. I got shoes for days I wear them for my self not any one else.I don't got any thing to prove. I'm not getting any where here. I need to start new where I can meet new people. Down south or new york is looking nice. 22 yrs old never left the dmv. Its all I know but I'm ready to bust loose. Move on leave turn to a new page. Just when I think I know who deejay is it keeps getting pulled away. I'm so done with the dmv so done with my job so done with where I stay. I'm going write the most realest thing I have wrote on this blog if I don't move then I'm going to kill my self....

Keep dreaming but dreams need to grow and watering and light so let it out and reach for it.

DAY33

DAY33

New blog up date my heart real heavy like 1 cadillac and 4 cheavys

DAY32

DAY32

Lol yep I'm messing around. All is well family is back. BIG SHOUTS OUT TO MY POPS HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE YA

DAY31

DAY31

THEY SAY LET ME SEE YOUR GRILL THEN I GIVE THEM CHILLS

DAY30

DAY30

JUST ONE OF THEM DAYS TRYIN TO KEEP MY HEAD ABOVE WATER... SINK OR SWIM?

DAY29

DAY29

WHY THE HELL AM I DEPRESSED. I want to think kickin it with people you would be cool but trust me it ain't that way. I feel like crap right now hmmm. Maybe I need to find some one ok deejay pull it together.

One person one life ONE DEEP

DAY28

DAY28

AT WORK!!! But on the real I think my left leg is broken or a tore some thing in it. The heel of of my foot is causing great pain. This pain is so bad I don't wanna leave my room. I think I need to go to the doctors. Yes deejay said doctors. Even thought I hate going I think its better to find out the problem. Then to let it get wrose

One person one life ONE DEEP

DAY28

DAY28

VACATION HERE I COME OH WAIT NO I WILL BE AT HOME WHILE FAMILY GOES HOME I HATE YOU BOSS LADY

DAY27

DAY27

KEEP IT MOVING NEVER SLOW DOWN FOR ANY ONE. KEEP PUSHING AND LET GOD JUDGE YOU AT THE END... SHOUTS OUT TO KANGAROO OOWW LOL

We are not the same I am a Martian (23)

Big shouts out to planet mars. Today is your day happy bday. I know we may have are ups and downs I would never trade them for any thing in the world. Every thing I told you before are fall out I still mean it.this girl is nothing like any other girl I cam contact with.she is odd in a good kind of way.she understands me better then most.I would trade it all to go back to day one but, can't so I'm just going to do for today . So keep showing that million dollar smile. The BIG 23 ALREADY KEEP SMILING

DAY26

DAY26

Shouts out to DAY26 for winning at the BET awards. Any ways day26 picture is from Monday and day 27 will be for day I was tied up last nite.

More then you'll ever know

Some times the little things mean more then you'll ever know. Some people don't consider others people art work. They say its just some pen/ or some paint marks on a white sheet. That person may not know what that person was feeling when he or she made that art. They didn't take time to know. It may seem like a ant hill to the other person. To that person it may be there only reason to hold or hold on to. They took the time out just to show you so that mean you mean some thing to them. I'm not just talking of art I'm talking of any thing some one may find improtant. I'm signing out remember you hold the key to happiness you just got to unlock it

DAY25

DAY25

Is it better to live for the moment or the future¿