I'm lost or am I losing

Ladies and gentlemen I been doing well on my diet *pats self on the back*. This update is not about me doing well on my diet but about two ladies who are in my life. VP and lady (have not wrote about her in awhile) vp left me cold turkey lady is still here. Vp just one day stopped coming by texting calling and everything in between. That bothers me how someone can seem like they care then one day just up and leave. I miss her witty comments and smart remarks. I at one point in time thought I could fully open up to her oh how was I wrong. She gone with out even a goodbye just gone. Now there is lady for some odd reason I cant let go. She and I are always on the phone together and if we aren't then we are texting. She makes me mad by pushing my buttons. With all the bad comes the good the best. She makes me feel like I can do any thing in the world. The problem comes from the fact we had are love fling and she burned out and is done while im still wanting more.the worst feeling is having the girl you want in your life but you cant have her. Im not mad or sad I'm just um how do I put it im just wanting. For the people who say let go may have never let go before because its the hardest thing to do.with her when I look in to her eyes I see promise and a thousand for evers.


To live without dreaming is to dream without living