Im what people call a pusher (no super fly pimp drug dealer) but a pusher is someone who push away people before they cann be left.well today I pushed and I pushed hard as me and VP went for a walk I knew she was going leave me once again when she gets in to the school of her choice. Or when she finds the job shes been looking for. So for some dumb reason I picked a fight with her to the point where she said today is the last day we will walk together. My pride wouldn't show it but I was hurting because I pushed her to no return. She was mad and hurt. Then I realized I dont want to lose what we have. So I tried to mend the broken friendship but I feel as though if I mend it you still can see the cracks. As we walked backed we talked and shared some laughs but yet it felt empty. I do all the gentleman duties for her. I walk on the outside of the sidewalk. I open doors and supportive. Call just to know she got home safe. This is not on some im trying to holla type. Never really crossed my mind. She pretty and real she speaks her mind so shes not for the weak. She is more then helpful. She makes me smile. At the same time makes me mad lol. She is one the most smartest girls I know. I just pray I didnt push her to far. If I did I hope I can fix it.
ONE person ONE life ONE dream ONE DEEP
PS I took this picture on our walk kinda reminds me of what I think the garden of eden
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